I Was A Teenage Pharisee! (audiobook)
The audiobook, of the eye-opening book, about what it can be like to grow up in church groups that are one step away from being cults
About the show
Every kind of religious group has its zealots. Some of us were those zealots. Teenage pharisees. And we bought into the thing whole-heartedly to our own spiritual detriment. We grew up without televisions, pop music, movies, dancing, cards, alcohol, voting and a thousand other little things. We sacrificed these things so as to please God and know Him and be able to share Him with others. We went to church five times a week. Sober-faced, King James Only, Victorian church. And all that really didn't work out very well. We became prodigal's elder brothers, many of us. Unhappy, closed, cold, bitter, disappointed people. Old before our time. People who needed Jesus.
This is a look at what it was like to be raised in a very specific sort of church culture. You know the kind:
... a strict, rule-focussed, isolationist, piety pageant. A place where listening to Christian rock is viewed with about as much suspicion as listening to death metal. A place where haircuts and shirts can be charged political and doctrinal statements. A place you learn a great deal about sin, the devil and hell, and what "looks bad," but very little of love and mercy, grace and forgiveness. A place you go to church five times a week. A place where you learn very little about Jesus besides the fact that you sinned and so he had to die for you. A place that seems to encourage you to view him as like a protective mother, stepping between you and an abusive, control-freak father who is going to annihiliate you for breaking house rules, so that the rage can fall on her instead of her children. A place where you learn little about the fact that God makes endless variety and beauty, and sent Jesus. As a gift. Which hurt Him a great deal.
Because you don't have to actually teach things that aren't true in order to skew focus and emphasis, and warp perspectives. You just need to have a weird focus that reads the bible more in terms of your own emotional baggage and daddy issues than in terms of what it's trying to say, and what it just plain doesn't.
This book takes a look at what was missing in a legalistic church culture of this sort, and what it was like to go out looking for it. What it's like not to throw the Baby Jesus out with the holy water. It has quotes all throughout it from people who experienced different kinds of Plymouth Brethren groups all over the world, including the very scary Taylor-Hales Brethren.
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Episodes
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Episode 1: Chapter One : My Roots
June 8th, 2023 | Season 1 | 2 hrs 39 mins
bible, christianity, depression, fundamentalism, guitar, hell, home recording, music, music production, parents, plymouth brethren, rapture, teenage pharisee, therapeutic
Part One: Normal's Whatever You're Used To
Foreword and Introduction
Introduction to God
Conversion Experiences
Testimonies
My Own Conversion Experience
Personal Experiences of God
Old Stuff Is Holier Than New Stuff
The "Other Kind" of Worship
Pulled Out Of Yourself. -
Episode 2: Chapter Two : Joining Up
June 9th, 2023 | Season 1 | 1 hr 25 mins
bible, christianity, depression, fundamentalism, guitar, hell, home recording, music, music production, parents, plymouth brethren, rapture, therapeutic
Part One: Normal's Whatever You're Used To continues...
Our Way Is The Only Right Way
Which Church Do You Go To?
The New Originals
Living For The Camera
Earning Grace -
Episode 3: Chapter Three : Virtue
June 9th, 2023 | Season 1 | 26 mins 21 secs
bible, christianity, depression, fundamentalism, guitar, hell, home recording, music, music production, parents, plymouth brethren, rapture, therapeutic
Part One: Normal's Whatever You're Used To continues...
Blind to Good
Virtue = Abstaining From Good?
Final Thoughts on the Soil From Which I Sprang -
Episode 4: Chapter Four : What's Wrong?
June 9th, 2023 | Season 1 | 1 hr 52 mins
bible, christianity, depression, fundamentalism, guitar, hell, home recording, music, music production, parents, plymouth brethren, rapture, therapeutic
Part Two: Starting To Wake Up
A Missing Sense of Proportion
Pharisees and Christianese
"Sensible" Voices
Modern Pharisees
When's It Going To End?
Taking the Wheel
Christ Instead Of...? -
Episode 5: Chapter Five : Why A Wrestling Match?
June 9th, 2023 | Season 1 | 1 hr 41 mins
Part Two: Starting to Wake Up continues...
Some Christian Kids Get Messed Up
The Answers to Everything
Fleeing Normal -
Episode 6: Chapter Six : Regime Vs. Relationship
June 9th, 2023 | Season 1 | 2 hrs 37 mins
bible, christianity, depression, fundamentalism, guitar, hell, home recording, music, music production, parents, plymouth brethren, rapture, therapeutic
Part Two : Starting To Wake Up continues...
Relationship Steps
Actually Approaching God
Stuff That's Got To Go
Addictions
I Try to Approach God
Harold Talks About Relationships
What To Do With Feelings
The Number One Thing We Did To Avoid Feeling Our Feelings -
Episode 7: Chapter Seven : The Word of God
June 9th, 2023 | Season 1 | 2 hrs 5 mins
Part Two : Starting to Wake Up
Lost in Translations
Black and White Thinking
Ideas
Not Pretending the Bible Says Things
The Magic of the Bible -
Episode 9: Chapter Nine : Human Systems
June 9th, 2023 | Season 1 | 2 hrs 28 mins
bible, christianity, depression, fundamentalism, guitar, hell, home recording, music, music production, parents, plymouth brethren, rapture, therapeutic
Part Two: Starting to Wake Up continues
Shelley's Story
What Systems Are For
Making Order
Division
Lofty Claims
Henry's Pamphlet (read by Henry) -
Episode 8: Chapter Eight : The Rules
June 9th, 2023 | Season 1 | 1 hr 29 mins
bible, christianity, depression, fundamentalism, guitar, hell, home recording, music, music production, parents, plymouth brethren, rapture, therapeutic
Part Two : Starting to Wake Up continues...
Writing the Unwritten Rules Down
Devil on Your Christian Shoulder
Idols
A Higher Standard Than Rule-Following?
Kung Fu for Dealing With Pharisees -
Episode 10: Chapter Nine : Human Systems (cont.)
June 9th, 2023 | Season 1 | 3 hrs 30 mins
bible, christianity, depression, fundamentalism, guitar, hell, home recording, music, music production, parents, plymouth brethren, rapture, therapeutic
Part Two: Normal's Whatever You're Used To continues...
Henry's Pamphlet (ESV: Standard English Version/Modern Language)
Jim's Story
Sects, Lies and Videotape
Systems Seem Threatened By People Seeking Answers
Leaving A Group
Some People's Stories of Leaving
Why Discuss Legalistic Church Experiences?
More People's Stories
Why Does Legalism Lead, While Love Leaves? -
Episode 12: Chapter Eleven : Stuff You'll Need
June 9th, 2023 | Season 1 | 1 hr 19 mins
bible, christianity, depression, fundamentalism, guitar, hell, home recording, music, music production, parents, plymouth brethren, rapture, therapeutic
Part Three: Out But Not Down
Outside Perspectives
More Than One Kind of Person
Boundaries
Driving Your Own Car -
Episode 11: Chapter Ten : Finding Your Own Way
June 9th, 2023 | Season 1 | 3 hrs 16 mins
bible, christianity, depression, fundamentalism, guitar, hell, home recording, music, music production, parents, plymouth brethren, rapture, therapeutic
Part Three: Out But Not Down
Conscience, Sin and the Flesh
Higher Standards for Treating Others
Making Life Decisions
Coming to Terms With Grace
Jesus as Law-Bringer?
Going After Good Stuff, Instead of Staying Away From Bad Stuff
God With You
Shame and Self-Punishment
Who Are You Now?
A Dark, Epic Journey of Transformation and Self-Discovery -
Episode 14: Chapter Thirteen : What Quelled the Ranting
June 9th, 2023 | Season 1 | 1 hr 25 mins
bible, christianity, depression, fundamentalism, guitar, hell, home recording, music, music production, parents, plymouth brethren, rapture, therapeutic
Part Three: Out But Not Down continues...
Legalists Are People Too
Pride, Envy and Enemies
God and Governments Want Your Charity?
The Ordinary, Everyday Nature of Legalism -
Episode 13: Chapter Twelve : In and Out
June 9th, 2023 | Season 1 | 1 hr 6 mins
Part Three: Out But Not Down
Redefining One's Understanding of "Defilement"
Broadening You "Us" to Include More of "Them"
Is Worship Style A Racial Thing?