I Was A Teenage Pharisee! (audiobook)

The audiobook, of the eye-opening book, about what it can be like to grow up in church groups that are one step away from being cults

About the show

Every kind of religious group has its zealots. Some of us were those zealots. Teenage pharisees. And we bought into the thing whole-heartedly to our own spiritual detriment. We grew up without televisions, pop music, movies, dancing, cards, alcohol, voting and a thousand other little things. We sacrificed these things so as to please God and know Him and be able to share Him with others. We went to church five times a week. Sober-faced, King James Only, Victorian church. And all that really didn't work out very well. We became prodigal's elder brothers, many of us. Unhappy, closed, cold, bitter, disappointed people. Old before our time. People who needed Jesus.

This is a look at what it was like to be raised in a very specific sort of church culture. You know the kind:
... a strict, rule-focussed, isolationist, piety pageant. A place where listening to Christian rock is viewed with about as much suspicion as listening to death metal. A place where haircuts and shirts can be charged political and doctrinal statements. A place you learn a great deal about sin, the devil and hell, and what "looks bad," but very little of love and mercy, grace and forgiveness. A place you go to church five times a week. A place where you learn very little about Jesus besides the fact that you sinned and so he had to die for you. A place that seems to encourage you to view him as like a protective mother, stepping between you and an abusive, control-freak father who is going to annihiliate you for breaking house rules, so that the rage can fall on her instead of her children. A place where you learn little about the fact that God makes endless variety and beauty, and sent Jesus. As a gift. Which hurt Him a great deal.

Because you don't have to actually teach things that aren't true in order to skew focus and emphasis, and warp perspectives. You just need to have a weird focus that reads the bible more in terms of your own emotional baggage and daddy issues than in terms of what it's trying to say, and what it just plain doesn't.

This book takes a look at what was missing in a legalistic church culture of this sort, and what it was like to go out looking for it. What it's like not to throw the Baby Jesus out with the holy water. It has quotes all throughout it from people who experienced different kinds of Plymouth Brethren groups all over the world, including the very scary Taylor-Hales Brethren.

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Episodes

  • Episode 1: Chapter One : My Roots

    June 8th, 2023  |  Season 1  |  2 hrs 39 mins
    bible, christianity, depression, fundamentalism, guitar, hell, home recording, music, music production, parents, plymouth brethren, rapture, teenage pharisee, therapeutic

    Part One: Normal's Whatever You're Used To
    Foreword and Introduction
    Introduction to God
    Conversion Experiences
    Testimonies
    My Own Conversion Experience
    Personal Experiences of God
    Old Stuff Is Holier Than New Stuff
    The "Other Kind" of Worship
    Pulled Out Of Yourself.

  • Episode 2: Chapter Two : Joining Up

    June 9th, 2023  |  Season 1  |  1 hr 25 mins
    bible, christianity, depression, fundamentalism, guitar, hell, home recording, music, music production, parents, plymouth brethren, rapture, therapeutic

    Part One: Normal's Whatever You're Used To continues...

    Our Way Is The Only Right Way
    Which Church Do You Go To?
    The New Originals
    Living For The Camera
    Earning Grace

  • Episode 3: Chapter Three : Virtue

    June 9th, 2023  |  Season 1  |  26 mins 21 secs
    bible, christianity, depression, fundamentalism, guitar, hell, home recording, music, music production, parents, plymouth brethren, rapture, therapeutic

    Part One: Normal's Whatever You're Used To continues...

    Blind to Good
    Virtue = Abstaining From Good?
    Final Thoughts on the Soil From Which I Sprang

  • Episode 4: Chapter Four : What's Wrong?

    June 9th, 2023  |  Season 1  |  1 hr 52 mins
    bible, christianity, depression, fundamentalism, guitar, hell, home recording, music, music production, parents, plymouth brethren, rapture, therapeutic

    Part Two: Starting To Wake Up

    A Missing Sense of Proportion
    Pharisees and Christianese
    "Sensible" Voices
    Modern Pharisees
    When's It Going To End?
    Taking the Wheel
    Christ Instead Of...?

  • Episode 5: Chapter Five : Why A Wrestling Match?

    June 9th, 2023  |  Season 1  |  1 hr 41 mins

    Part Two: Starting to Wake Up continues...

    Some Christian Kids Get Messed Up
    The Answers to Everything
    Fleeing Normal

  • Episode 6: Chapter Six : Regime Vs. Relationship

    June 9th, 2023  |  Season 1  |  2 hrs 37 mins
    bible, christianity, depression, fundamentalism, guitar, hell, home recording, music, music production, parents, plymouth brethren, rapture, therapeutic

    Part Two : Starting To Wake Up continues...

    Relationship Steps
    Actually Approaching God
    Stuff That's Got To Go
    Addictions
    I Try to Approach God
    Harold Talks About Relationships
    What To Do With Feelings
    The Number One Thing We Did To Avoid Feeling Our Feelings

  • Episode 7: Chapter Seven : The Word of God

    June 9th, 2023  |  Season 1  |  2 hrs 5 mins

    Part Two : Starting to Wake Up

    Lost in Translations
    Black and White Thinking
    Ideas
    Not Pretending the Bible Says Things
    The Magic of the Bible

  • Episode 9: Chapter Nine : Human Systems

    June 9th, 2023  |  Season 1  |  2 hrs 28 mins
    bible, christianity, depression, fundamentalism, guitar, hell, home recording, music, music production, parents, plymouth brethren, rapture, therapeutic

    Part Two: Starting to Wake Up continues

    Shelley's Story
    What Systems Are For
    Making Order
    Division
    Lofty Claims
    Henry's Pamphlet (read by Henry)

  • Episode 8: Chapter Eight : The Rules

    June 9th, 2023  |  Season 1  |  1 hr 29 mins
    bible, christianity, depression, fundamentalism, guitar, hell, home recording, music, music production, parents, plymouth brethren, rapture, therapeutic

    Part Two : Starting to Wake Up continues...

    Writing the Unwritten Rules Down
    Devil on Your Christian Shoulder
    Idols
    A Higher Standard Than Rule-Following?
    Kung Fu for Dealing With Pharisees

  • Episode 10: Chapter Nine : Human Systems (cont.)

    June 9th, 2023  |  Season 1  |  3 hrs 30 mins
    bible, christianity, depression, fundamentalism, guitar, hell, home recording, music, music production, parents, plymouth brethren, rapture, therapeutic

    Part Two: Normal's Whatever You're Used To continues...

    Henry's Pamphlet (ESV: Standard English Version/Modern Language)
    Jim's Story
    Sects, Lies and Videotape
    Systems Seem Threatened By People Seeking Answers
    Leaving A Group
    Some People's Stories of Leaving
    Why Discuss Legalistic Church Experiences?
    More People's Stories
    Why Does Legalism Lead, While Love Leaves?

  • Episode 12: Chapter Eleven : Stuff You'll Need

    June 9th, 2023  |  Season 1  |  1 hr 19 mins
    bible, christianity, depression, fundamentalism, guitar, hell, home recording, music, music production, parents, plymouth brethren, rapture, therapeutic

    Part Three: Out But Not Down

    Outside Perspectives
    More Than One Kind of Person
    Boundaries
    Driving Your Own Car

  • Episode 11: Chapter Ten : Finding Your Own Way

    June 9th, 2023  |  Season 1  |  3 hrs 16 mins
    bible, christianity, depression, fundamentalism, guitar, hell, home recording, music, music production, parents, plymouth brethren, rapture, therapeutic

    Part Three: Out But Not Down

    Conscience, Sin and the Flesh
    Higher Standards for Treating Others
    Making Life Decisions
    Coming to Terms With Grace
    Jesus as Law-Bringer?
    Going After Good Stuff, Instead of Staying Away From Bad Stuff
    God With You
    Shame and Self-Punishment
    Who Are You Now?
    A Dark, Epic Journey of Transformation and Self-Discovery

  • Episode 14: Chapter Thirteen : What Quelled the Ranting

    June 9th, 2023  |  Season 1  |  1 hr 25 mins
    bible, christianity, depression, fundamentalism, guitar, hell, home recording, music, music production, parents, plymouth brethren, rapture, therapeutic

    Part Three: Out But Not Down continues...

    Legalists Are People Too
    Pride, Envy and Enemies
    God and Governments Want Your Charity?
    The Ordinary, Everyday Nature of Legalism

  • Episode 13: Chapter Twelve : In and Out

    June 9th, 2023  |  Season 1  |  1 hr 6 mins

    Part Three: Out But Not Down

    Redefining One's Understanding of "Defilement"
    Broadening You "Us" to Include More of "Them"
    Is Worship Style A Racial Thing?